Change

Happy Monday! There is no rhyme or reason for this photo, just for giggles. I have found myself in a bit of a funk this morning. Nothing in particular, just a little off. So, I thought this photo would make me smile- it did.

Last night I was reading out of the devotional book "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young (really great little read), the devo was on anxiety and she wrote something like this "Do not linger too long in the future, for it allows little mushrooms of anxiety to sprout... but rather let God write your fantasies..." or something. Ugg straight to the heart, this is so hard for me; but, this is absolutely true. The future is completely unknown and if I allow myself to 'linger' there I become quite down- change.

Something I was really looking forward to has changed. It's not going to be how I thought it was- change.

Lately the conversations I have had with my mom have been serious- things are changing.

Everything I know is changing, not for the worse, but changing none the less. I feel like I am being pushed through a hole that I don't quite fit through, my emotions are being pinched, pulled, and spread. Today I hate it. Today bitterness is on the tip of my tongue, and a part of me wants to allow it to consume me. I need time to digest, but I have no time. I need to cry, but the tears don't come. Today I am broken; BUT, Christ has overcome, He is victorious over death, He holds me in His hand, HE ALONE IS FAITHFUL! He is interceding on my behalf to the Father. He is steadfast, & UNCHANGING. Because of this I choose to rejoice.